dont leave me #

in the quiet of my mind, a story forms
not one i’ve lived, but one i fear.
you, the person i trust more than most,
what if you turn cold?

you know me—
my past, my present, and maybe
you even see where i’m headed.
but what if one day,
you leave me behind?
mock what i am,
make me feel small,
tell me i meant nothing.

the flaws i try to hide,
the mistakes i’ve made,
all of it laid bare.
ugly, fat, imperfect—
words that cut deeper when they come from you.
my words fall flat,
my presence unnoticed,
nothing about me is enough.

imagine the day someone accuses me of something terrible.
a rumor spreads like wildfire.
i’m labeled filth,
a disgrace,
someone no one should care about.

and there you are—
will you believe them?
or will you question it,
give me the chance to explain?
if they offer you “proof,”
something twisted,
will you stand by me?
or will your faith in me crumble?

i wonder about you,
the one who holds all my secrets.
will you stay when the whispers grow loud?
or will you judge me in silence?

the thought of you abandoning me
is too much to bear,
but the questions won’t stop.
they make me weak,
they make me doubt.

i hope you never read this,
these doubts i pour out.
writing’s supposed to help, right?
ease the weight,
release the tension.
but still,
the fear lingers.

would you betray me,
leave me when i need you most?
i’ve heard you say we’re strong,
that nothing could break us.
but what happens when fatigue sets in,
when my insecurities
become too much for you to hold?

this poem—it’s just a plea,
a whisper in the dark
that i hope never reaches you.
because i need you to stay,
through everything,
no matter what.